Donde Estan Corazon

So for those of you who aren't enrique fans, or at least are closet fans and will proceed to make mocking comments about this blog (haha I just outed you!) Enrique is coming out with a new Spanish album March 25th! yeah! A. He is much better in Spanish. B. He has this new song that I am in love with and is perfectly fitting my melancholy mood (Donde Estan Corazon per title, can be found on you tube).

Clearly this song is a hit. It's funny, I was actually listening to a spanish music station and I heard this song and I fell in love with it and was thinking, finally, another spanish singing artist I like besides Enrique! And then at the end of the song I am thinking, wait, this sounds like Enrique. :)

Anyway, this song is one of those songs that makes you long for days when life was simpler, and cleaner, and brighter. I am not sure exactly when that day was ;) but I am pretty sure it was in my childhood somewhere. Se va como todo se va.

As this second year of residency comes to an end, or at least a three quarters point, I find myself tired and disillusioned. As I have repeated several times to my attending this month, 'the system is beating me down.'

What system? I am not sure exactly. Is it residency? or mental health care? Is it call? Is it being watched over the whole day? Is it not having control over my schedule? With new fervor I find myself telling my patients, 'I wish there was more out there for you.' 'I wish I had more to offer you.' I feel like while I used to offer hope (you can do this, you can beat this, you can get better) now I see like a ghost of myself sitting on the other side of the room, right next to them while they lose faith. And this ghost is nodding dispiritedly in time with them, as they get frustrated and cry.

Donde estan, donde estan corazon?
ok, a bit maudlin for me, but it fits my mood,
frieda

Two in one!

Ah, back at the Taub. Sometimes residency feels like a boomerang---you go wayyyy out there, and suddenly, wait, isn't this the same thing I started out doing two years ago?

Well, I thought I would ring in this return to blogging (though a little hesitant to name it as such yet) with a new regularly themed topic: Things That Annoy Me.

1. Noisy neighbors (some of you have heard more about this than others :))
2. People who do not use their turn signal.
3. Having coffee stains on my white coat but not wanting to buy a new white coat.
4. People who call me on my cell phone from numbers I do not know.

Ok I am going to stop that list now I thought it would be interesting but I was kind of falling asleep while I was writing it (so I can only imagine what it was doing to you)

ho hum. Maybe something will happen that is worthy of you dear readers...until then
:)
ff

It's all about perspective

Yesterday I told Rasha (normal working person) that I am on call today from 6-7. Her response 'wow, that really sucks!)

Today I told Gigi (ob-gyn resident) that I am on call today from 6-7. Her response 'oh, that's all?'

:)
Frieda